Everything Is EnD ~

Em..quite long i din update my blog~haiz..my life suddenly become..dun reali noe to describe!Is like ending..no meaningful..no reason for me to continue my life,my studies..and more~mayb sumthing change me or wad..myself also not sure abt it!Well..im trying to give more confidence..but can't,is hard for me to do anything..every night i couldn't slep well..eat well..like a half-death person!Huh..now had graduate..at last my studies had been finish,im gonna find a job!But find a job..is not easier~urghh..reali headache abt all these kind of things!Why life so complicated?Can't be simple as like normal person?Em..izit myself thinking too much?Being so long..since frm young till now..im trying to change myself to be better!But..i feels like not good enuf..is stil miss up sumthing!Wad else is it..?Any1 could tell me..?I being so confuse sumtimes..duno wad to do?My parents dun reali understand,wad i wants..wad i need!?Well,tis is the life as a onli the son..i don't have any sis or bro~when i saw my friends or others ppl,in their family..they do have sister,brother..im so jealous of it!But..why?why?Why i can't have the same thing..?Sumtimes,when im sad..moody,i reali need a person by my side..share,talk and think 2gether..but is impossible!Now i adi 19..gonna 20 soon!In love..it depends on feel and faith..when i saw those couple being so hapi 2gether,walk 2gether,hold hand 2gether,share everything..i was thinking abt myself..im so LONELY T.T
Being so long..i had never get into love..mayb there's no one believe it,but is true!Many ppl asked to wait,be patient..it will come itself!IF is ur's..it will come to u straightly~i do believe..but how long?1 year?10 year?I noe..sumthing must find out by ourselves..but where is all those ladies?I juz wish to get a person to share life..is that hard?For others ppl mayb is juz a normal or simple thing..but for me,i think it was hardly!Well,im not handsome..im fat..mayb girls see me,doesn't like me..mayb they will hate me?!
But wad to do..?Tis is me..i cant change myself to be handsome or wad..tis is faith!I juz wish..everything could be normal,good in my life..no stress,no painful,no sadness~i hav a attitude..which is..HAPPY!I always ask ppl must be hapi,always with smile..coz if u're sad,always moody..then y as u being a human for?So,no matter wad..even u're in moody or sad..try to be relax,cry out..tell out..shout out..it could be better~is true!But..sumtimes when im moody or stress..my best medicine is MUSIC!Well,im the onli son in my family..im lonely..no bro or sis..no gf..so music is my partner!
Without music..there's no me in tis world!
So..try to be HAPPY..smile more..u will get the more in tis world!