M O O D Y ~

Sometimes..i think life is so complicated,but do u think so?Huh..for some ppl..they think life juz as like normal..but for me,is lonely,sadly..and alone always!Friends i do have..but friends juz will be around when u feel boring..but most important for me,is a person hu veli important in my life..could share everything and could be with her when i need her!But..will tis be true?Em..some of frens say is up to faith..mayb my faith haven come yet..but is that reali true?I was being so lonely sometimes..juz look at the mirror..looking to myself..a stupid..a ugly person..tis is wat myself think of it~Even im not handsome..but frens say my attitude is good,not bad..and im look chubby but i think myself is getting old >.< ..im gonna 20 soon..1 day per 1 day..time past quickly!Reali wish time could stop a moment or past slowly..
But..i think is impossible gua..when im in moody,lonely,sad,music is my most best fren!Without it..i think is veli hard for me to continue my life!PPL say..music juz as like medicine,when u sick..u need it and u feel more better!It's true..but stil cant solve my problem~
WHY..?WHY..?Why i stil feel so uncomfartable..?When is u..?When u'll appear in front of me..?When u gonna be 1 part of my life..?God..u always bless us and trying to make ppl's dream become true..but abt my dreams,y stil not become true?
Is that so hard for a small dream to make it be true?Haiz..is reali sad..sad..and sad ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........................................wish to let go everything n juz leave tis world without any stress,thinking..anything/everything..juz go without thinking anything..tat's good~but is impossible!Hu wish to die so early?I think there's no one could wish..but some ppl wish to do so..coz they think in tis world,there's nth to stay on it..tat's y i think de same too
I wish i could say tis sentence to the my dream girl : 'take my hand,take a breath..pull me close and take one step'
I waiting for tis day..i believe there's someday could be possible..and i believe my dream may come true..